Hello, I’m Mattia! I grew up in a big family with the best siblings and very loving and hard-working parents, but my culture never made it easy. Growing up I was taught by culture and society that my beauty was defined by looks and my worth by my accomplishments.
This wasn’t easy because I grew up in a Christian household and spend lots of time in church especially in my teen years, where I was being taught that my beauty and worth was defined by God. For the longest time there was so much tension in me because I didn’t know what to believe. In the midst of figuring it out, I went to college thousands of miles away from home.
Being 21 in college, having never dated and still being single hasn’t been easy, especially considering that our beauty and worth is often defined by our relationship status. Ever since high school, I always knew that I didn’t want to get in a relationship just because I could. I always knew that I wanted a God ordained relationship, even if I barely knew what it meant.
When I got to college, I heard that was what most people talked about. I started having lots of questions I couldn’t ask my best friends, my siblings or my mum since they were miles away. (The time difference didn’t help either!) But soon I realized that I could go to God and allow Him to answer all those questions and teach me more about who He says I am.
Lately, through the book of Ruth and the book, Lady in Waiting, God has been teaching me a lot about the daughter He created me to be. One thing that I just learned from the book of Ruth is that our beauty comes from within, and it shines so bright that it is undeniable! Ruth’s beauty and worth were not defined by her past, her body size, her origin story or anything else.
Her beauty was in her.
This reminds me why I love 1 John 4:4. Ever since I started focusing on building my inner beauty and self-worth from God’s perspective, I’ve leaned how to appreciate and love my body more and more. When I look in the mirror, I don’t just see me. I see God’s beautiful masterpiece
Ever since, I set out on this journey of discovering who I am. The first thing I learned was that I had to go back to the one who created me to figure out who I am. The journey hasn’t been easy, but it’s been the most amazing life journey I’ve ever been on.
I know I still have so much more to learn, and you know what? I’m excited for it!