Welcome Carlyn, Lovely. She is a busy young woman, juggling work as an Assistant Manager at a local law firm and making decisions about law school. I’m grateful Carlyn is sharing her story with our Body Truth Community.
Hello, I’m Carlyn. And I have always been anxious. In high school it was, “Who will ask me to Prom?, “Who will be my partner for the class project?, “Who will I sit with at lunch when my best friend is home sick?”
In college, it was more or less the same anxiety, all rooted in “What will people think of me?” I would make myself sick with worry and would be unable to eat.
During my senior year of college, my doctor suggested I start taking an anti-anxiety medicine. I have always believed my faith would be strong enough to absolve my fears, and I struggled greatly with the idea of taking medicine. I felt as though I was telling God he wasn’t enough to solve my problems.
But through the help of my parents and my church community, I began to view the medication as a vehicle for God to work through me. Since being on medication for my anxiety, I have begun to eat normally and have gained weight. At first I was distraught by this side effect, but then I remembered that my weight gain is a reflection of my anxiety lessening, of those nagging thoughts disappearing, and of the freedom I have in God.
I constantly go back to the Bible verse 1 Samuel 16:7, “For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”
My heart and my mind feel more at peace than I can ever remember feeling, and for that I am so thankful. I am thankful for a God that works in mysterious ways to remind us — we are His.
Lovely, Carlyn is my BeautyCounter representative, and I love how her story shares about God’s faithfulness. I reached out to Carlyn because in our recent communication, her authenticity struck me. As you consider last minute gift purchases, I invite you to #shopsmallbusiness and support Carlyn. Click her biz link here to shop clean and safe skin care for all skin types.